I've thought for quite some time that I might start a blog. I've had many internet friends for years and love the relationships I've created with them and the blogs that they've created. In the back of my head I always thought that one day, when my husband and I start to have kids, that a blog would be cool to have. Not because everyone else does it, but because I don't live close to my family at all. When I have kids I'd like a way to share things with them that I don't want to share with all of facebook.
My husband and I recently went to New Zealand for three weeks and decided when we got home that we would stop avoiding. I'm freaked out, naturally. I feel like I need to question everything. are we ready? Am I ready? He says he's ready but is he really (I think as a wife I'm supposed to ask this question again?). Are we financially ready, will we ever be financially ready? I will be paying off my student loans for the rest of my life, so its not like we can wait until those are paid off to start this process. and we're happy and in love! oh yeah, sorry stupid sappy stuff back to the practical...we own house and both have great jobs.
So logically because we both want kids this is the next step. I think we're ready to give up all of our free time. time we generally spend drinking with friends.
But here I am the night before AF is due and I'm freaking out because we just stopped trying to avoid. what if it happens that quickly. am I selfish for worrying it might happen too quickly? So many people struggle with infertility. people I know and love have struggled with infertility.
Anywhoooo..here I am. Here WE are my husband and I at a transition point in our lives.
This blog will be private for a while, and maybe I'll start to share it soon but for now. I think its just me and the computer.
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