Tomorrow morning is my beta test

I’m anxious.  I actually didn’t even tell Ben that I was going in for blood work because I don’t want him wondering all day long what the results were. If it’s positive I want to be able to tell him in person that I’m pregnant.

I find myself sitting in my office repeating, please be pregnant please be pregnant please be pregnant….like that over and over again.

I’ll be honest. I don’t think it worked because Ben’s numbers were so bad this cycle.  The only reason I have a tad bit of hope is because I haven’t had the normal cramping I get before AF arrives….but I’m also on 400mg of progesterone so that may be holding the cramps at bay.  Who knows.  If it didn’t work than it didn’t work, if it did I’ll cry tears of happiness.

Either way as soon as I know I’ll update everyone…although I only know of about 3 people that consistently read my blog:)