Yesterday I spent the better part of my day at a bridal
shower for one of our close friends. It was beautiful and they probably spent
waay to much money getting it pulled together, but hey I enjoyed all the
mimosas!
Me on the other hand left slightly tipsy and feeling sorry
for myself. My marriage is struggling
and these kids have no idea what unknowns lie ahead for them. Did I ever expect to be dealing with
Infertility, NO, but here we are almost 7 years into our marriage and watching
someone else so happy and completely unaware of the hard days a marriage can
have broke my heart a little. I want to
be that person that’s the center of attention again. I want to be celebrating
my baby shower and instead I find myself upset over someone else’s happiness.
I’m sorry, I know I’m a depressing person
Wow. If that's her shower, I can't wait to see pictures of her wedding. So pretty!
ReplyDeleteAs for feeling sorry for yourself, I think that you've been so strong for so long. You deserve to let yourself really feel this. Let it hit you. Be mad. You've certainly have held it together better than I ever could have. You deserve to be the center of attention and one day, soon, we'll be throwing you a beautiful baby shower for your beautiful baby!
Amanda
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