What I go through every month

I’m not sure if I’ve ever shared this with you before.

At the end of every cycle I spend days obsessing over the possibility of being pregnant.  I don’t say anything to my husband.  I let as much time pass as possible before I go to the bathroom.  I analyze every single twinge going on in my body. Do I normally cramp this late in my cycle, do my boobs normally still hurt? I’m sure they didn’t last month….I look at the calendar obsessively counting days.

I drive myself crazy.

And then I get my period and wonder why I got my hopes up.