IUI is done!

Last night Ben and I were together, alone in our house, something that doesn’t happen that often.  He was just getting out of the shower when I got home and we had a nice long chat about today.  I asked him if he was nervous, and he said yes but that he was also excited. And then he said, I’m ready to be a dad. I want to be a dad, Andrea.

My heart melted. I feel like sometimes in the mix of all this TTC we lose track of what we’re really doing.  Not actually lose track but that we don’t end up  talking about our feelings that much.  I don’t want him to think I’m an emotional nutcase, and he doesn’t want me to worry or to know he’s worried because he’s supposed to be the strong one.

It was a special moment for me. for us.

I didn’t think I would be nervous this morning but I was. First I sat in the waiting room for almost 45 minutes before they brought me back for my insemination. Thank goodness I had a book I was very into.  Once I actually made it into the room I sat 1/2 dressed rolling the beads on my fertility bracelet. But it was over before I even knew it!! Our first insemination was done at about 9:15 this morning! Ben’s numbers came back better than when he gave for his semen analysis so I was happy about that.

He called me on his way home from the doctor’s office and actually thought he’d done worse, but he didn’t, he did better! I’m hoping this good news helps him tomorrow when he has to give his sample for the next insemination.

I’m hopeful. Scared I’ll be disappointed, but still very hopeful.  I didn’t feel anything during the insemination and now a couple hours later I feel slight twinges in my uterus area…but nothing really, no cramping or soreness. 

Fingers crossed tomorrow goes as smoothly!!