I’m boring. I work, sleep, and go to doctor’s appointments. I can’t even workout right now because I twisted my ankle working out on Saturday.
Several other things:
1) I think we may need to tell Ben’s dad about everything. Ben works with him and depending on when the IUI is scheduled, we will have to spill the beans. Ben wouldn’t be able to just say, I have something to take care of, or something vague like that, his dad will insist on knowing specifics. I have a bit of anxiety about this. I love my in-laws but I feel like I will be judged and critiqued if they know we’re struggling with infertility. That sounds crazy, especially if you know my in-laws, but in general they are very anti medical intervention. And secondly, and this is the worst part of the whole thing, this isn’t my fault. We’re struggling with male infertility here, and I know Ben could never tell his family that, but I also don’t want to be accused of being the source of the problem when it seems, I am not the source of the problem.
Anyone who has struggled with infertility knows that what I’ve just said out loud above is a huge no-no. I’m supposed to say it’s not either of our faults, it’s our problem not yours, your sperm may be the issue but this is our problem.….basically blaming the other person is wrong. And I know that. Don’t you think I know that?
2) I believe my coworker just checked out my ass. I mean I saw him do it. I was walking away and turned back around quickly to see him staring at my ass. That’s uncomfortable. I like my ass, but I don’t really want to think/know that my coworkers are looking at it.
3) I have to go to a going away party tonight for someone who already threw HERSELF a going away party. She left town and then came back and is actually leaving town this weekend. So on a Tuesday night I’m going to a party. And I’m detoxing so I don’t know what I’ll eat. I offered to bring veggies and hummus…so I’ll be able to eat that.
That’s it. Do I sound like a bitch today? I would love to just go home and get some reading done. I’m in the middle of Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins and it’s a great read.
Okay, it's bad enough that she had a going away party and then came back but she's having another going away party? Seriously?
ReplyDeleteand as to number 1. I think it's fine to think that to yourself, obviously you wouldn't say it to Ben. Can Ben not just say to his dad I need to take an hour off to do something private and important? Surely his dad knows he wouldn't just take off for no reason.
trust me, I know. I mean she didn't throw this one for herself, but still.
Deleteand I know. I really hope Ben can get away with telling his dad that he has something important to take care of thats private. but Ben doesn't seem to think his dad will take that answer. I know he'll ask a million questions and so I understand why Ben is nervous about it. and he'll have to do it twice, because we're doing two inseminations...sigh:we'll see.