Finding someone that’s right for us

I’ve decided that if Ben and I want to have a healthy marriage we need to go to counseling. I looked into counselors several weeks ago and just never pulled the trigger, but we have to.

Ben and I had a very bad weekend full of fighting, crying, him drinking. I basically think he’s miserable and is trying to self-destruct. Drink so his sperm doesn’t get better, make me angry so I’ll want to leave him….honestly. This is some tough shit we’re going through and we’ve made it almost 2 years without needing outside mental support, but we need it now.

So I’m searching for someone that understands infertility. They have to in order to be able to understand the stress this is putting on our marriage.

I’ve talked to Ben about this and he rolled his eyes at me (see good communication) and I basically told him that if he wanted to see our marriage last then he needed to do this with me.  I feel like he’s really let me down and maybe by discussing this in front of a counselor he’ll see how hurt I am by his actions. I need his support and I feel like he’s being selfish right now and not giving me what I need.

 :::Sigh:::

 So this could be me sometime next week. (note that isn’t me even though that person has brown curly hair:J)

 

 

Also something weird. When I went to find the photo you see above this photo of Tyra Banks also came up. don’t know why…

 

all the other photos were like this