No such luck.

The pregnancy test was negative. 

Now I have to tell my husband.  Do you know how hard it is to have to share this kind of news with your spouse every single month.

My heart is broken. My faith is dwindling. 

I tested this morning

I had been going back and forth on whether or not I wanted to take a pregnancy test before my blood work on Friday, and I couldn’t hold out any longer.  I decided that I wanted to know before I got a phone call at work telling me I wasn’t pregnant. So I tested and it was negative.  I kind of expected it so I’m OK, but my husband isn’t.  I need to make him a really special dinner tonight or something….I need to do something to cheer him up.  

I feel like I should have more to say on the matter but I don’t. I’m kind of numb to the BFN.  And also it never really hits me hard until I start my period, which won’t happen until I stop taking the progesterone.  Which is another thing that sucks. Knowing you’re not pregnant and still having to stick those darn things up your vagina….and then the leaking. Yuck. My RE said that I needed to continue to take them until I get the blood work results.

So until next cycle.

BFN

So I tested this morning and got a BFN.

I wasn't planning on spending money on pregnancy tests quite yet, but apparently i'm going to be one of those crazy people that tests every cycle.  Who am I kidding, of course I am that crazy person. Always have been so i'm not sure why this would be any different.

Honestly I feel fine about it.  I think my DH is a little disapointed. I think he thought --

unprotected sex = baby

and while I know that sounds ignorant i'm sure there are a ton of guys out there that think the exact same thing.  His response to to the BFN was well next month we'll have more sex!  now if your period would just come on so we can get on with it.

So tonight i'm headed out drinking. I wasn't sure how I was going to get out of drinking had I gotten a bfp.

Happy New Years to us!! to a baby in 2012!